You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one, I’ll always love.
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken
Pieces of the life, I had before.
So, how’s it workin’ for you? Do you have the life you intended? Do you have the job you intended? Do you have the partner you intended? Do you have the body you intended? Do you live where you intended? Have you traveled where you intended? Have you accomplished by now what you intended? Has it all gone exactly as you intended? I’m going to guess … not exactly.
About 16 years ago I was studying the geographic, political and religious conflicts in Palestine and went on an intended pilgrimage. A few friends and I snuck out of our room in Bethlehem at about 1:00 a.m. with the intention of a little exploring and adventure. What we didn’t know is that as a Palestinian territory, the power was cut at night and the farther we walked, the darker it got, and we quickly became lost. We didn’t know the streets, we didn’t know our way back, and fear immediately began to creep in. Our intentions for adventure turned into silent terror; we wondered to ourselves how the night would turn out.
The street we pursued got more and more narrow and it led to an opening we decided to push through. As we passed through, we looked in the distance and saw flickerings of light in the countryside; they were the fires of modern day shepherds/bedouins beyond the traditional site of the birth of Jesus. We had wandered in the dark upon the courtyard of the Church of the Nativity.
We sat down in hushed silence and didn’t talk to one another, rather we received the moment for what it was. Our intentions were for adventure, what we encountered were the unintended consequences of a vision of THE adventure, the night God became man and decided to live amongst us. Life is full of unintended consequences.
Is our personal narrative meant to be intended? Isn’t that part of the poetic mess we call our life? Our lives are a mosaic of unintended consequences: the good, the bad and the ugly. The trick may not be at all to accomplish our original intentions but to roll with the punches of our unintentions. Life is about embracing the beauty of the now, not in the lament of the broken pieces of fallen intentions. Live in the now, live in your unintentions and breathe deeply of the beauty that is your real life, unintended as it may be.
Photo (Flickr CC) by young shanahan